A broken friendship

‘I am done with you. We will stop here.’ these are the last few words she left on my MSN chat box.

I met her when I was temporarily working as a runner in a hospital after SPM, the first time I have ever worked. Upon recalling,  the first time when I saw her, she has fair skin but looking quite pale. She did not smile when she see me, like a fierce tiger.  Her eyes are big, when she looked at me, as if she is scanning me thoroughly from inside out.  My first impression for her was that she may not easily to be friend with.

As time goes by, we turn out to be friend. We are getting closer and closer and I see her as my best friend. She is a kind person, who treats her friends very nice. For those she hates, she will show them that she really hates them, verbally or non-verbally. She will not conceal her feelings but I think she is better than the hypocrite who acts friendly to someone for other purposes.

We start to be closer after her boyfriend broke up with her. Before that she always complains that how bad his boyfriend treats her. I feel sorry for her too. I think she looks happier since they broke up. The day they broke up, she weeps uncontrollably on my shoulder and I try to comfort her, making her feel better. As a friend, I let her to lean on whenever she is broken down. Since then, we have our lunch together at 1pm as previously she is having lunch with her boyfriend. She will drive me to other places to have lunch whenever she has the car. We try to avoid the officer who wants to split up our lunch time together. We will ‘disappear’, off the sight of the officer when it is near 12pm after we notice that she might ask either one of us to go for lunch at that time.

She is an extremely funny person. For everyday, we make fun of the others, crack loads of jokes, laughing a lot till our stomachs cramp until the officer ask us to stop making noise. Sometimes we will ‘punish’ a particular person who deserves to be punished because that person is not responsible for her duty. One day when that person is late to come back from her lunch, she is so daring to page her to back to our department immediately. We are very dedicated to our job. I have to stress that we are very responsible in doing our job although we look like just playing around. The job is quite tiring as there are no chairs for us to be seated. We have to stand and walk around for the whole day. Saturday is the most tiring day as there are a lot of patients. We work for half day on Saturday, after that we will be ready, waiting until the clock strike 1pm, we will rush downstairs to the bakery to buy half priced buns and cakes as they give staff 50% discount for that day.
 

Finally it is the time to enroll into form 6. Before my last day of working, she gives me total 3 presents as my off-going gifts and treats me lunch. She says must give 3 presents to someone, because ‘3’ represents something good in Chinese beliefs. I reciprocate her by sending her 3 gifts too. Feeling sad to leave, as I think we may not have so many opportunities to meet up and have fun again. I am very sad to leave that working place, because I really enjoy every single moment working at there as some of the staffs treat me very well and she always brings laughter to me. I am glad to have friends who are very kind and caring.

Then, I have to concentrate on my form 6 studies and she is busy with her university studies, we lose contact gradually but sometimes we will chat on MSN. Until about a week ago, I saw her again in a hypermarket. I was excited to see her and want to talk to her but I was on the escalator which is heading downstairs. Few days later, she asked me to do her a favour.

Honestly, I think that is not a proper thing for me to help because if anything happens, I will be indirectly bringing troubles to another person. I cannot bear the consequences as the last thing I would like to do is to bring troubles to others. I rejected her, she said I am being  selfish and such a coward, there will be karma for rejecting her. Gosh, how could she say such a thing? That is an outrageous remark! Maybe I have pissed her off by the words I used to reject her. She is still able to figure out an alternative way to get what she wants, even though I rejected her. She ended our friendship, deleted my facebook account from her friend list and posted a sarcastic message all in capital letters on my facebook wall.  I was furious plus sad. Furious, due to every single harsh and rude word she used against me; sad, due to the pathetic way of our friendship ended. Honestly, she is all about my sweet memories of working at hospital, how could I just forget how nice she treats me so easily? Maybe it is due to some undesirable misunderstandings between us. I really have no idea why her reaction is so big when I refuse to help her. I am confused.

Someone told me that we must always remember how well our friends treat us and forget how badly they hurt us. For me, if I just think of how well she treats me, I will be very sad because I lost her as my friend, if I think it on the other way round, I will think that she does not deserve to have me as her friend. I think I better not to think about it anymore. Perhaps years later, all the misunderstandings have fallen apart, we will be friend once again, as the Chinese saying goes ‘There is no such thing as forever friend and forever enemy in this world’. But I think this saying may not be applied on the true friendship. True friendship will not end easily.